I think this post is overdue, anyhow here goes...

My grades for last semester came in late last week...the "confirmed" grades....it wasn't confirmed before because there was a grade for one subject that was still pending (remember that dumb boo boo the school made?)

ok...i started last semester feeling dejected, low, depressed, whatever...cos my GPA fell from that minimum standard i had set for myself...my school has this GPA calculator that allows us to plug in pseudo grades so that we can gauge how our final GPA might turn out...and i kept plugging in the grades i thought i might be able to get and well..the results always left me disappointed...so much so that i even entertained the thought of repeating accounting II so that i can pull my GPA up ( i HATE accounting)...

I studied the best way i knew how...and prayed and surrendered everything to the lord...there were times during the semester when i would feel really lazy...and when the grades for some tests weren't all that pleasing...i would repent of my laziness and pray for the lord's help...sometimes i would feel as if i was trapped in this vicious cycle...procrastinating and then repenting...work a lil'...procrastinate and then repent again...even the day before the exams i could not say i was 100% ready...or i did the best i could...

it's such a miracle...and truly by the grace of God that i got the grades i got...i am extremely happy and satisfied with my grades...my GPA improved!!! i'm still in the running for one of those honors i want...

i think without the lord's mercy, direction and wisdom i would have lost the battle...i asked the lord to show me the areas to concentrate on and He did..He really came true for me...i would converse with the lord constantly, before the exams and ask specifically for Him to show me the areas in which to focus on and He did...and i prayed before taking every paper.

This may seem a lil' difficult for some of my non-christian friends to understand...but the lord really did help...He is my rock and my strength...all i had to do was say "lord take-over" and i would feel some of that heavy weight being lifted off my shoulders...

That being said...please don't misunderstand what i'm trying to say...and think God is some magic genie...

would i still thank the lord even if my grades did not turn out the way it did? well it would be hard...but i would...'cos there is a reason and there's a lesson...He has a great plan for me..tho' i know not yet what....but slowly and surely I trust and have faith that He will reveal it to me...