to those who think that to do well in the American system is easy peasy, well let me tell you it is not.

An A is at a 92.5 most of the time. I had a friend who once asked if it was set so high cos it's really easy to get As. well it is so not. it is really difficult. if you want the A, you need to put in an A grade effort and it's not easy.

yes... i am stressing out right now. it's the exam period. thoughts of grades, grades and more grades are flooding my brain. i wonder about the GPA at the end of the entire course. i don't need anything greater than a 3.75. give me a 3.75 and i'll be happy for life! extremely satisfied...

the thing is, it is so easy for ur GPA to slip. and when it does, it slips by a lot. and when u make the effort and get more As than the previous semester, ur GPA only goes up by a small tiny puny little bit.

It is tough people, really. this is assuming u are striving for err a good GPA. If all u want is really just that cert that says u are a graduate? well i guess after clearing that min. GPA to get into the school of wadever major ur doing u can just go ahead and get ur Cs and Ds. This would be easy peasy.

anyway...as i was saying, at the end of the day, i want a 3.75 cos it is doable it's just the amount of hard work i'll have to put in that's frustrating me. cos i'm really quite exhausted after 6 semesters...

in this point of time, i'm really glad that i have friends and classmates around me that share a similar goal and are encouraging me and pushing me forward :D all the best guys, i hope we all make it! :D

and i have other friends, my family and sometimes the holy spirit reminding me that it is not by my strength that things happen. why this exhaustion? my brains came from the lord. i'm just His servant, His instrument. why do i need to strife? when i succeed it is not about me. I did not do it, but it is the lord who gave me everything that i needed to do it. so all glory goes to Him...

it's so difficult for me to let go and let the lord handle everything. it's easy to say i surrender all and i have said that countless times. but did i really surrender all??

i'm really inspired by some of my friends in church. they go for cell, church and do all sorts of church activities and yet they are able to do so exceedingly well in their exams. i think it has to do with trust, trusting the lord, having faith and putting it to work.

oh it also has to be said that at the end of the day, you must make sure you really got an education. you DID study something. you DID get something out of ur undergraduate studies. knowledge that will help you grow and mature and go into whatever field of business you so wish to go.

ok. think i've reflected and vented enough. Lord hear my cry. I know you've heard me. I'm here. do to me what you will. really, take control. i love ya! :)